What a disgrace
Never in my wildest dreams did I think that my column would cause this much nonsense...let me explain/clarify...
First of all, I did NOT throw the fight. I went into the cage as I always do - expecting to win. In hind sight, I also went in there with more on my mind than I could ignore. The bottom line is, I quit. I gave up when things got hard. It was a horrible situation for me to deal with, but opening up about it has made things easier/better for me. Further more, than only people that I own an apology too is my family and training partners.
And I don't give a **** about anyone that may have made or lost money on that fight. I am not a gambler (one problem I have managed to avoid), but I think betting on MMA is about as risky as getting in the cage.
About Wolfslair, let me start by saying that I trully like everyone I met there. They are a great group of guys that I will always consider friends. In this situation, I was a paid training partner. I had an agreement to get paid a certain amount of money to do whatever was asked of me. I held up my end of the deal and have not yet been paid. Mentioning this situation in the column was little more than an attempt to get them to return my calls, texts, or emails. Nothing more.
For the person that made a comment that somehow I was disrespetful towards Duke or his gym, but saying that they are now good, because they are bigger or better. You could not be more wrong. I even stated that I was the one that didn't take advantage of my opportunity while I was there. I suppose I should have said...they were great the first time I was there, but now I am ready to embrace a new enviorment and learn as much as I can. I am returning to Milwaukee right after my fight next weekend and would appreciate if you didn't try to make things awkward for me:)
Finally, my life is not longer out of control (no more than the rest of yours), I have goals that I am reaching for everyday and at the end of the day, that is most important.
I am not the first person to have ever quit and gave up during a fight, I will not be the last, but I will never do it again. However, I might be the only dumbass to write about it. Thats alright...I did it for me, not for you. If you can learn from my mistakes, great. If you are no longer a fan of mine, I'm sorry, but keep watching I might be able to win you back. If you think the fact that I quit is the worst thing in the world and you will never cheer for me again, just promise me you won't respond to anything I write again.
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